What To Do?

Chapter One

There was me, 

then there were the other gals,

the gals who could walk up to the cute guys without being afraid.

And that's not me.

Although I kinda, KINDA, have the most popular guy in the class since our parents are friends, 

she still gets you, and your parents have never met.

And when I come over for dinner, we talk like old friends, (which we are, if you forgot).

But at school, you live your separate world. 

It's like I don't exist. 

Your always to busy flirting with the more popular gals.

I'm always at my desk being quiet,

listening to your conversations.

Then, I'm not the brightest knife in the cupboard,

while on the other hand....

I know I'm not the prettiest one in the class,

that doesn't matter much to me, though.

But when it comes to competition,

my freckles usually make me end last.

We all know I'm the only one in the class with over 15,000 freckles,

and you don't need to tell me twice. 

I love to help, and people always tell me how I'm such a good friend to them.

But then, someone more... 'important' comes and I'm forgotten immediately. 

Then I walk away feeling unwanted.

Back again with the guy, I feel like we're drifting apart.

We barely talk at school,

our mothers don't bring us together much anymore,

Worst of all, he doesn't lean on my chair like he used to!

(I admit it, I liked that...!)  

We used to be so close...

Its the same with my friends.

Even if I'm standing right there,

no one talks to me.

Even if I try to get included,

I get whipped out.

So I just go find another friend.

A friend you have known for a long time is always a trusting friend.

This guy I know is one of those friends,

Sometimes, when I'm laughing and shoving him, 

I see the cute guy glancing at me.

...?

What I think is weird is that even after school, 

when we're the only ones at the park,

we still don't talk.

I guess we both don't know what to say.

SO REMEMBER, IF YOUR GOING THROUGH SOMETHING LIKE THIS,

WHERE YOU DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO,

JUST REMEMBER:

THE PERFECT GUY IS STILL OUT THERE,

WAITING FOR YOU TO FIND HIM.

Chapter Two

I think I lost him.

Really.

I just finished reading a book, 

and there was a girl who thought a guy liked her,

but no. 

So, it kinda got poetic.

This is what it said:

"It began in her head, 

and convinced her heart.

Then it disappeared like morning mist.

She knew that it wasn't her head that was sad,

but her heart."

I think my head convinced my heart that he likes me.

Really?

He probably only does 10% less than he did an hour ago. 

I know my heart will be sad when I find out. 

Of course, it could be the total opposite.

He could really care for me. 

(Not likely)

By then why do I hold on?

Why can't I let him go and wait for my perfect match?

If he doesn't care about me, 

why do I care so much about him?

It's dumb.

Plus, it causes more stress for me.

I need to worry about x-Rays, school,

and him. 

Honestly?

Sometimes, I think this:

-Why did I ever meet him?!

-Why can't he go away?!

-How come I like him?!

But I know deep in my heart I care for him. 

We're old friends, 

so why don't we ever talk?!

....advice? (I need it)

I KNOW MY TRUE LOVE IS ROAMING THE EARTH SOMEWHERE RIGHT NOW, SO WHY CANT HE COME HERE AND SAVE ME?!

And now, just a few seconds ago, I found out who he really likes. Me and, like, five other girls. Should I forget him? He always has more than one crush. It always causes drama, and he always breaks everyone's heart. (This is like last year, but that was worse. Maybe I'll write about that, another time. That was a sad year....)